being mentally ill is so embarrasing how can you explain to a normal person that you had to psych yourself up for half an hour to like get off the floor

my curse is that everything bothers me and I’m in a state of annoyance and discomfort 80% of the time

i can say embarrassing things on here because y’all are not real

i love every cat in the entire world. every cat on the planet.

if there are any cats in outer space i love them too

I'm always too much, yet never enough.

Karma is not working, i think i need a gun.

bpd is feeling everything while also feeling nothing. i'm overwhelmed just by the thought of existing

“I’m worried about you”

Me: “I’m honestly worried about me too”

forever thinking of the time i just wanted to know how long i could go without sleeping and google autofilled it to “in minecraft” without me realizing. you can imagine my shock and horror until i read the website title

People be like oh you’re in your 20s you have a whole life to live but I already feel as if I’ve missed every opportunity and made all the wrong decisions and it’s just fucked now

I never want people to think they have to be extra careful or gentle with me just because I’m traumatized. I don’t want people to tiptoe around me or feel pity or think I’m fragile and that the tiniest thing could break me. I also don’t feel like I deserve anyone’s special effort to be attentive or kind towards me just because of the trauma.

But in all honesty I desperately need people to be careful and gentle and kind because I am fragile and the tiniest thing can break me. Do you see my problem.

someone: *raises their voice*

me: death is so close i can practically taste it

“your mental illness is all inside your head.” okay…but… how do i get it….. o ut