how is it april already. this year literally just started ???

*deleting vent posts* im normal now please don’t break our mutual

I can't do a Normal Person schedule, I need like 6 hours sleep / 8 hours awake / 4 hours sleep / 6 hours awake for the day

How to romanticize studying : Ways that do not require you to own a million rainbow pens or a pretty desk

(based on this post)

@oitreewrites

1. Keep your desk clean

if you try searching up "study aesthetic" on pinterest, there is a 100% chance that it will be pictures of beautiful wooden desks next to a window overlooking castles or some pretty shit. Now, for those of us that live in a maze of cement buildings and apartments, this seems like a midsummer night's dream (sorry i've been reading too much shakespeare). But, even if you have a basic desk facing the wall, there are many ways to keep it aesthetic. first and foremost, clean your desk.

seriously, get rid of all the waste papers in the corner, and that pile of textbooks that looks like its from the 1800's . if it is clean, i promise you, it will look better.

2. ✨Jazz it up ✨

now, if you (hopefully) have cleaned your desk, you're still not very happy with it. But, here's how to jazz it up

# Print out quotes and plaster them on your wall

# Stick your to do lists, etc., on the wall, and write in black ink, it looks like 63% nicer

# If you're using post it notes, use post it notes of the same color. Do not, I repeat, do not make your wall look like a unicorn threw up on it.

3. Getting in the Mood™

okay, now you have a decent looking study space, now to get into the studying part. first look at all your subjects, all your chapters and figure out the subjects which are hardest and the ones that are easiest. now, if you are a music buff, you probably wanna listen to spotify while studying, right?

well, my love, that is the first step to failure. let me illustrate.

personally, i suck at physics. so, i thought that if i listened to music while doing it, somehow my brain would like it better. seems logical, right?

no.

after a few weeks, i started to suck more, which i didn't think was possible. my grades went from A's to B's, and the worst part was i didn't understand what i was doing wrong.

but, in hopes that you don't make the same mistake, i want to tell you a few secrets:

# If you are doing an easy subject, then listening to music is completely okay, in fact its great!!

# but if you're even 1% unsure, never listen to music while doing it. If you really cannot stop listening to music or you need some ambient sounds to keep you going, use 'i miss my café' or 'noisli'. its waay better.

# but, if you're really loyal to your musical side, you can listen to music, just make sure it doesn't have lyrics, or if you need lyrics, then lyrics in an unknown language is better.

okay this post is getting really long so i should stop now, but i have a few more ideas for part 2, but this post took a lot of braincells so i'll continue only if you guys want me to :)

tumblr is like a group therapy with no therapist.

Things that are not justifications for someone abusing you:

• Saying, “no” to them
• Withholding personal information from them
• Refusing to hug, kiss, or otherwise touch them/be touched by them
• Disagreeing with them
• Avoiding them
• Having emotions
• Needing help
• Saying the "wrong” thing
• Defending yourself
• Asking questions
• Stimming
• Crying
• Refusing to go somewhere
• Asking for an apology
• Being mentally ill

"needing help" is on the list too, folks. this is something i struggle a lot with, i endure abuse because I think "well it's fine they really need help, they're hurt and struggling and i shouldn't be an asshole so i should just shut the fuck up and wait for it to pass".

Alcohol should be on there as well

If you can't hd your drink and go into a state where you continuesly regret or have to say sorry for things you said or your actions

Then don't drink, if this angers you you probably use it as an escape but still is no excuse whatsoever

Things that are not justifications for someone abusing you:

• Saying, “no” to them
• Withholding personal information from them
• Refusing to hug, kiss, or otherwise touch them/be touched by them
• Disagreeing with them
• Avoiding them
• Having emotions
• Needing help
• Saying the "wrong” thing
• Defending yourself
• Asking questions
• Stimming
• Crying
• Refusing to go somewhere
• Asking for an apology
• Being mentally ill

"needing help” is on the list too, folks. this is something i struggle a lot with, i endure abuse because I think “well it’s fine they really need help, they’re hurt and struggling and i shouldn’t be an asshole so i should just shut the fuck up and wait for it to pass”.

being a girl is all about jumping from one obsession to the other to run away from yourself

I may be mentally unstable but at least i have fuzzy socks

there is something very very wrong with me