depression culture is feeling guilty when you smile/laugh or have a good day because you feel like you are faking it

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your daughter was a pleasure to have on my dashboard
I was born.
And I took that personally.
I am mentally exhausted and I want to burn everything. ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
do u ever miss your own energy. like damn what happened to me
why does my future have to rely on me? i'm certainly not a stable enough source...
Don't ask me "wyd" i really just be in my room going insane and being a danger to myself
— Sylvia Plath
My hobbies include being weird and then being like why did I say that
How the fuck am I supposed to live like this. What the actual fuck.
in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience
ghosting everyone because i think i’m annoying