So we really did normalize looking happy while dying on the inside but not looking like you're dying inside when you really are dying inside? ok Internet logic.

i've had enough of being so brave about it i want to start screaming

me and the girls who still use tumblr in 2022

When your mother growing up regularly gave you the silent treatment for weeks on end teaching you that you literally weren’t even worth acknowledging unless you were serving her…

When you had such a kind heart that you searched your every word and action looking for, what did I do wrong? To come to the conclusion that you just were wrong.

😭😭😭

Giving my inner child hugs today

I see her as the magical orb of light she’s always been

And her miserable bitch of a mother’s actions don’t define her.

Originally posted by v-freitas-16

You’re probably wondering whether what you experienced was really ‘that bad?’. Let me tell you - if you have to question it, if it hurts, if it still runs through your mind, it was.

You don’t have to feel guilty over the pain you’re feeling.

friendly reminders to self-harmers

Don't overuse antibiotics like neosporin, polysporin, etc, they can cause bacterial resistance and you'll be fucked if you get an actual infection. Use them only if a wound looks sketchy

Do NOT clean injured skin with alcohol or peroxide. Use them to disinfect anything that you have or are going to use to harm yourself (cutters, razor blades, etc) to avoid any funky stuff going into your body, use either a fragance free soap (doesn't have to be antiseptic or antibacterial but it's better if it is), iodine or another antiseptic meant for wounds to clean injured skin. Alcohol and peroxide can impede healing when used long term.

Never, and i mean never, use rusty stuff to harm yourself, things of dubious origins or dirty things. I dont care if you are vaccinated. There are ways to clean and disinfect stuff and get rid of rust.

You don't always need to cover you wounds (obviously if you dont feel comfortable not covering them because you don't want others noticing its okay!) if they're shallow but for deeper cuts (styros and deeper) you might want to, this way its easier for them to be in a sterile environment and stay moist, which minimizes scarring, promotes faster healing and prevents infection. If you want to cover your wounds change the dressing regularly and clean the wounds regularly.

Don't cut too deep if you aren't ready to go to an hospital. Some deep wounds ("beans" aka hypodermis/fat layer and anything under it) is likely to need stitches. For styros and some light beans you can do well with steri strips and bandages, but please go to an hospital if you cut very deep.

Finally:

Eat well and drink water (i know many people who sh have eds as well but your body cant repair itself well if you dont eat well)

Sleep well, also at night (because your body repairs itself better when you're sleeping during the night)

Moisturize your wounds often (preferrably vaseline for the first few days or as long as you can, after the first few days you can use a moisturizer that's apt for sensitive skin)

Dont shower too often (hot water can strip your skin of natural oils and also irritate it, so if you shower everyday with hot water try to do it every other day or shower with colder water)

Dont wear tight clothing on fresh wounds

CHANGE !! DRESSINGS !! REGULARLY !! AND DONT PICK ON SCABS!!!

so apparently sleeping doesn’t make your problems go away. I woke up and everything still sucked. shocked and upset

My parents: *is their usual toxic/abusive self*

Me: *shuts up and takes it like I always do*

My brain wanting me to fucking die: SHOUT AT THEM. POINT OUT ALL THEIR FLAWS. ENRAGE THEM YOU COWARD. FUCK YOU BITCHES. COMMIT ARSON. SHOW THEM HOW IT FEELS TO BE HURT *sends very graphic intrusive thoughts*

getting mood swings like a playlist on shuffle