I just need to switch off my emotions, I don't want to feel anything anymore.
the depression is real today lads!!
I always feel like im about to throw up gsdgjiishg help
where do I go I feel suffocated in my own being
I give a fuck, I give lots and lots of fuck
imagine you're a witch and you memorized recipe of a special potion from your nemesis but your cauldron is dirty and you don't own a big enough dishwasher to get it cleaned and also you're out of paper
You having a bad day isn't a licence to treat others badly
yeah bro keep daydreaming your life will fix itself
“i daydream sometimes too”
I guarantee either you don’t understand what I am trying to explain for the last 10 minutes or don’t care enough to listen. It’s not about daydreaming sometimes when I’m bored, this thing keeps on going when I’m doing something else, talking to people, studying, using my phone, showering. This doesn’t leave me and when it gets loud, I’m unable to move, work or do anything, I can’t focus no matter how much I want to, even when it’s urgent, I can’t push it aside or mute it. I’m struck with it, it’s almost like it’s real but I know it isn’t. I’m helpless
“just try harder”
it physically pains me when I try to focus, there’s a million things going inside my head, unrelated things, totally made up things, I’m sorry what I’m doing isn’t enough for anything but that doesn’t mean I’m not trying, I’m trying my hardest. I am always on the verge of tears and breakdown, I always feel like throwing up, yet I force myself to work
I woke up at 5 today to study and all I did was go back to sleep bc nothing interested me and there was no point in forcing myself to read and understand the material
Brain: You're so stupid, how will you ever be successful? You're going to fail all your tests and end up as a beggar.
Me: Let's study and revise then.
Brain: LMAO *zones out and daydreams* no.
I’m this close to giving in to drugs