"Why are you so cold-hearted?"
Oh I don't know, I think it might've been because you slapped me for crying. Or told me that I wasn't allowed to show specific emotions, like being upset, so I worked on making sure my face only showed 'appropriate' emotions. Might've even been when you insulted my appearance, intelligence, interests and treated like it was a joke so I had to numb all my feelings to cope.
But you know, complain about how you raised me to be I guess. I suppose an emotionless child is less useful when they don't know how to show concern for you and is avoiding you because of the anxiety you cause them.
Abuse doesn’t make you ‘tough’, it makes it so when someone hurts you, you get a massive flashback to every time anyone has ever hurt you, you have to remove yourself from the situation to get a massive breakdown, you don’t get to react properly because you’re overwhelmed and unsure what’s real, and at the end of the day you’re filled with doubt over whether you feelings are all wrong and what amount of upset you’re allowed to be and you just sit there devastated asking yourself what is wrong with you and why can’t you be normal
i hate that God decided it would be okay to drop me on earth to abusive parents in a place where i can’t possibly get help and THEN survive a pandemic and become even more depressed to a point where i can barely make posts on Tumblr dot com
my mom told me once she saw one of our neighbours beating their kid [girl, 10 i guess] with a stick and she stood quietly without crying, my mom told me how decent, well mannered she was and how i should learn from Her to not cry when they hit me (and my dad hits fucking hard even with only a hand or mostly hands).
Guess I’m sorry that you abusing me made me over-sensitive and not completely numb like you wanted me to be. A non-living object lying quietly as you continue to hit it over and over again.
we were something don’t you think so?
idk what to do with myself anymore
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Read it again...
A child: developes a mental illness, struggles with school, tries to seek help
Parents: How can you do this to me? You know how this makes me feel? Stop being so dramatic! Other kids have it way worse! How can you embarrass me like that??!!
A child, now adult: Still mentally ill, but has now learned to never open up
Parents: Hey sweetie 🥺 if there's anything going on 🥺🥺 you can open up to us!!! We're FaMiLy 🥺🥺💕💕💕
my only motivation to go on is so I can finally move out
i have to live the rest of my life!?
I take a pill every now and then to literally function and I’m also highly aware of the fact that this is how I am ending the supply I have. How will I survive once they’re finished?!?!?