I want to die so badly. I’m so beyond tired, and I don’t know what to do anymore…nothing can be done, there’s nothing I can do, there is nothing anyone can do…I just don’t want to do this anymore..I don’t want to wake up anymore…I don’t want to do this anymore..I want to die so badly..I just can’t take it anymore my limit is tearing my insides apart..and I need it to stop..I need everything to stop..

*between sobs* FUCK THIS *opens tumblr*

u ever do something and go. My god I'm mentally ill.

Why should I be around my family when they don't respect who I am or my boundaries? Why should I make them happy when it is slowly killing me like a disease? Why should I have to be around the person who abused me because they make excuses?

You've taken away everything I could have been

"My child is fine"

You literally traumatized your child susan

Your child shouldn't be afraid of you.

I wanna talk about this really cool app that I use to talk to my para(s). It's called Antar!

Antar is an app that was developed for the purpose of talking to different "sides" of yourself in order to organize your emotions or come to a decision about something. You create different "personas" and you can chat with em and switch between easily.

For example:

So yeah, that's basically it. It's personally easier for me than imaging convos.

Highly recommend Antar for all the MADDers/IDers/plurals/whoever else may benefit from it~

someone: hey are you doing okay?

me, planning my suicide and violently self-sabotaging: yeah why

i am freezing someone please cuddle me or set me on fire either is fine