It's been the same since 2015

I look at others and I feel so sad for myself. I’m just existing. And they are living. They are able to move on and get ahead in life but all I do is stay stuck in the past and suffer

Things no one tells you about when you’ve been mentally ill for years and it won’t get better

— everyone will give up on you. Some will say it upfront, some will have indirect ways of showing it (you’re a lucky mf if you still have someone )

— your symptoms/ breakdowns/ panic attacks are cute for a few months. Everyone wants to help. Later on people find them annoying and inconvenient

— you will be blamed for not getting better. Doesn’t matter if you’re doing therapy, taking meds, exercising, eating well and sleeping. You can do all of it, some of it or none of it. They will find fault in your efforts.

— desensitization to your pain. This one isn’t their fault, it’s human nature. But it happens and yes it hurts cuz you would wish you were desensitized to your own pain but you have to feel it no matter what. Doesn’t matter if it’s the millionth time. It demands to be felt.

— people move on. But you can’t. You see people cope and get over things while you simply can’t. And it’s so much worse if you’ve been mentally ill for years. Even the smallest things break you and trigger you.

— you slowly realize this world isn’t made for mentally ill people in any way

— you’re tired / fatigued all the time. You have been for years now. You simply exist but you aren’t capable of living anymore. Your illnesses have taken everything that made you feel alive. You’re nothing but a shell. A body.

please don’t tell me things will get better one day, i’ve been through so many tomorrows and things never got better. in fact, they got worse day by day.

tired of having to “get an education” and “find a job”, my ideal future is to be the silent and subdued patient in the mental ward who sits listlessly by an open window, painting the landscape in watercolours

If you abuse a child, the society doesn’t need you.

If you think your past experiences make you entitled to hurt a child, you see children only as a tool for exacting your personal revenge for your own life. Children are not responsible for what happened to you.

If you feel the need to defend your abuse of a child, you’re defending your right to hurt, damage, and traumatize a vulnerable individual who can’t fight back.

If you think children are an acceptable outlet for your rage, you’re a coward.

If you gaslight a child over what you’ve done to them, you know you’d be prosecuted for what you did. You know you did a crime. You are forcing a child to deny your own crimes for your own sake. You’re as pathetic as possible. You need children to stand between you and authorities, while hurting these same kids. You need them to protect you while you walk all over them.

You do not deserve loyalty from these kids. You do not deserve love, and you do not deserve forgiveness. Children don’t exist to be controlled or violated by you. Nobody does.

—no because seriously,what the fuck am I doing.

my actions have consequences?? what kind of scam is this

parents after traumatizing their kids :