I literally have reached the stage "if this goes wrong I can always kill myself"

Sometimes people use “respect” to mean “treating someone like a person” and sometimes they use “respect” to mean “treating someone like an authority”

and sometimes people who are used to being treated like an authority say “if you won’t respect me I won’t respect you” and they mean “if you won’t treat me like an authority I won’t treat you like a person”

and they think they’re being fair but they aren’t, and it’s not okay.

“Who want me”

Girl the psych ward

I come from a long line of people who should not have had children but did anyway

Tactics of Abuse

• Manufacturing Insecurity
• Emotional Gaslighting
  
• Double Bind makes you believe you chose to be abused
  
• Future Faking to get you attached
  
• Using your trauma to gaslight you
  
• Disgust used as a weapon 
• Social abuse meant to isolate and outcast you
  
• Undermining your achievements is to keep your confidence low
• All the things they do to make you believe abuse is your fault
• Tactics of Narcissistic abuse (Love Bombing, Mirroring, Triangulation, Gaslighting, Projection, Scapegoating, Hoovering)
• Smear Campaign as a silencing tactic
• Common abusive tactics of narcissists/sociopaths
• Why abusers ‘lose control of themselves in rage’
• ‘Why don’t you know this already’ tactic
  
• Arguing against abusers gives them insight in your vulnerabilities
• Why you’re not allowed to bring up the past
• Magical Thinking used as an escape sabotage
• Lines that normalize Grooming
• Tactics of Grooming 
• Tactics of Sexual Grooming 

know the difference between enjoying your youth & destroying your future.

true but.. the thing is that i aint even enjoying my youth and my future.. no its better to not talk about it.

i know. i know m fucked.

not me watching Taylor processing her trauma instead of processing my own 😃

You tore off my wings then became upset when I couldn't fly.

This whole year just felt like a prank

My family really doesn't love me. They just see me as their property. They just need to have control over someone. That's not love.